Yikes, just did a Google search on this one and within minutes was in so deep I almost needed to be rescued! Lately I have been wishing that I was not such a light sleeper, wishing that I could just snuggle into my bed with my little man and enjoy precious long nights of co sleeping. Sadly though, my anxiety and depression are triggered significantly by lack of sleep.
Just the thought of sharing my bed with a kicking, snoring, squirming little person induces feelings of anxiety. It is not the kicking, the snoring or the squirming itself that causes the anxiety. Nor is it the choice of bed buddy, I love him to bits! It is the deep knowing that all of these things will affect me in the morning, they will keep me awake and deprive me of the healing and energising sleep that I so desperately need every night.
In the middle of writing this post life interrupted and as if by magic manifestation all of the above has materialised! SO ironic, last night I was left with no choice than to accept my little bed buddy into the fold at around 1am. Clinging tightly to the hope that co sleeping may suddenly be blissful as pictured above, I endured 5 long hours of aforementioned kicking and snoring. Pushed to my limits after consecutive nights of bed hopping I am now sharing to soothe my own soul and hopefully reach others in the same state.
*sigh* another round of Mummy vs Toddler leaves me clambering back from the depths of exhaustion again!